Locked up, pussy full and I'm my balls are acking

Last night told me She wanted to work up to fisting me and double fisting me. That She wants to hold hands with a friend inside my butt. Well today I found out She wasn't joking around.

After last nights ordeal today my anus is feeling stretched and worn out. Miss had me grab the butt plug harness and insert the smallest dildo which is about 4 1/2 inches but the head of it is curved to hit near the prostate. That is in me right now and has been in for 30 minutes so far. I don't know how long I will be wearing it for.

Also my balls feel so full and with the plug up me right now my balls feel fuller. I look dazed and it's hard for me to focus at the moment, I feel so used up. Miss then told me She will give me a rest tonight from a ass pounding like last night but I still have dildo inside currently.

I asked Miss if that meant She will be back at it tomorrow night. She said, "of course. I told you that I'm going to fist you and that you are my slut."

The longest I have ever been in chastity is 13 days 2 years ago when I did it myself. It's so much more difficult when someone is constantly teasing and denying you. On top of that my ass has had something in it 4 out of 6 days now.

I told Miss I truly want to be Her slut, whore, bitch, sissy and I know that it takes training to get there. Now I am under ass aka "pussy" training so that someone wants to use my holes they will be functional at beck and call.

I don't really want to cum tonight because I want to be prepared if I am to suck off our visiting TS acquaintance tomorrow and because I have been locked up my mouth is drooling for cock to be shoved down it and for cum to be shot in my mouth. But at the same time my body is starting to fidget and tingle because my cock has been kept 3 inches small for going on 6 days and I haven't had any CB on in awhile. I know that this is going to be a regular thing now and that Miss has more fun with my "pussy" than She does my cock.

But I can't wait to cum and I will do anything to recieve that from Miss.

Chastity Fantasy come true - Ass stretching, humiliation, chastity

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Ears pierced and Boy George for Halloween

Last week my piercer from my tattoo shop was involved in a session at our dungeon and since I've been planning on getting my ears pierced I figured this was the perfect time. So he came over and I got both of my earlobes pierced in a 14 gauge. Now I've got to wait 3 months until I can change the studs out and wear different earrings. But now I can wear REAL earrings as a girl.

I may stretch the holes just a little bit but I don't want big holes. Now I also want a few more piercings. Maybe another in my earlobe just a little higher up and my left cartilage. I have thing, when I get a tattoo, a piercing, or if I wear a watch, bracelet anything a long those lines. It ALWAYS has to go on my left first, otherwise I just feel off balanced.

HALLOWEEN! I've decided to go as Boy George. The good Boy George, not the street cleaning addicted drug addict, lol. So the picture here is of the make up style I'm going for. Last night I was asking for a few tips from some drag queens on how to go about doing this because I don't normally do extensive make up like this. I asked SAL-E about something and I know he gets crazy booked around this time of you for doing make up and I saw a post about him not taking any more clients. He gave me a tip and then told me he's doing make up at the Salon this weekend to get a few more in and he's doing my make up tomorrow afternoon!!! Let me tell you if you don't know. He is amazing! He does drag himself and is just incredible and everyone in Chicago knows him and many others around the world. His prices are great and I can't wait to see how I turn out. Tomorrow night is the Studio Halloween party but I also have to other parties I'm attending on the 31st. and Nov. 1st. I'll make sure to take lots and lots of pictures. I hope everyone has a great Halloween and has a creative costume!

SO HORNY -- = -- Dirty Thoughts!

I'm so HORNY!!!
I haven't been in chastity because I need a new device ( a loris tube ) however I will still be put in the CB-3000 on and off as long as it's not seriously hurting me. Anyways, I am still not allowed an orgasm unless Miss allows it and I have only cum once is the past 7 weeks.

Tonight I'm going to do my best to impress Her and hopefully earn an opportunity to release. Last night I found this picture which I keep thinking about. I'll attach it below...hopefully you will be able to see it.
http://www.chastitymansion.com/photoplog/images/443/1_siss_new.jpg

Miss knows I want to pleasure a transexual woman. I think they're beautiful and I can't wait till that day comes. We were on the train home just about an hour ago and I said something about a sissy and she said "oh, really!!" I figured she knew but I guess not. I told her if we are both comfortable with the person I would service a sissy / sissy maid as well however she wished.

Then to be a true....true cuckold!!!!!

So below are some images to give you an idea of what I can't stop thinking about as well as my little cock in my satin panties.

http://www.realsissyschool.com/ffpicts/9d58.jpg I want this so bad!!

http://www.chastitymansion.com/photoplog/index.php?n=245

http://www.chastitymansion.com/photoplog/images/488/1_6bdescd.jpg

http://www.chastitymansion.com/photoplog/images/149/1_mchastity143.jpg

http://www.chastitymansion.com/photoplog/images/443/1_cuck.jpg This is my reality! I've gotten used to it and not only appreciate it but love it.

http://www.chastitymansion.com/photoplog/images/443/1_2241903773_1a2993d213.jpg The loris tube. I can't wait to get mine!

So that's a little example of what is on my mind. Hopefully Miss will allow me to release sometime soon and then I will be put into the CB-3000. That I do know.

CLUB FEM Tonight

Tonight is the Club Fem party at our Studio. It's the first one in a few months and the first one at our new Studio aka Dungeon. With all the organizing over the past few months and just getting all straightened. Not to mention Miss and I moved into a new apartment on the 1st of September as well.

(If you don't know what Club Fem is..............It's for Female Dominants and male submissives ONLY. It's an organization all across America. For the males that attend they must either be cross dressed or naked. Look it up there are chapters in many cities and maybe one near you.)

Anyways Miss told me that I'm going to be hooded for the entire night. I believe I'm going to be wearing panties as well but I'm sure I will naked at some point in the night. The hood I'll be wearing as a removable mouth hole. I naturally take deep breaths so I need the month hole to be open if I'm going to be in the hood for a long period of time. But i can be gagged as well, because I can still breath through the gag.

I haven't been in Chastity lately as I do have problems with the CB-3000 and wearing in for long periods of time. Also my Guishe piercing fell out and my hole closed. I do still have the PA ring and we plan on buying a Lori chastity device but those aren't cheap. We'll have one in the near future though. I haven't had an orgasm in 3 weeks even without chastity and Miss informed me that She along with a few other Dominants are going to put me in the CB-3000 tonight at the Club Fem party.

I must admit I'm excited about it and it's been on my mind the past 2 days. But I really, really, REALLY hope that Miss lets me cum prior to be placed into chastity. But if Miss does let me cum at the party I can only imagine doing something really humiliating during and after cuming. But, I'll do anything, not that I have much of a choice. I'll make sure to let everyone know how tonight goes.

NEW TATTOO

I did get a new tattoo the other day. It's actually from a poster I've had. It's really one of the pictures where different people see different things. It's two girls kissing rocking big headphones. To me it represents my love for music...but the girls kissing makes it a HOT picture. So I just got it on my left forearm.

For awhile I wasn't ready for a tattoo below my elbow but I was thinking about it and went and got it done and I lOVE it! The color in it is perfect and I like the placement on my body.

TAKE A LOOK.......................................
I still plan on adding more around it as well but It's got to be perfect so I'm still tossing ideas around.

Changing my hair style....Going longer

I'm thinking about growing out my hair a bit. The longest I have ever gone is about 2 months and my hair is kind of slow at growing. Currently it's about when I want a hair cut and I think I may trim it up just a little bit for my birthday, which is SEPTEMBER 6TH I'LL BE 22 btw. But after that I plan on letting it grow and getting it styled into a boyish - femme hair cut. We'll see what it turns out looking like but I'm hoping that I like it and then I can have a better look when I crossdress without having to wear a wig.

I attached a picture of a look I like for a bob hairstyle. Not that my hair will look like this but I think that's a good length to try and get my hair around. Luckily a friend of mine has been doing drag for over 30 years and he is a hairstylist so he can go at my hair and I trust him.

I'll take pictures of when my hair is growing and stages. So if I trim it up this week just a little bit and then let it grow. Hopefully around December it will be a decent length. That's 4 months from now.

Oh.....I am also going to get my ears pierced within the next month.

Dolled up for a fun Party

Last night was the Studio Party (nawa shibari focus) but all types of play was occuring of course. I went as Aly and I loved my outfit. I wore darker - almost black demin jeans. They are capris that roll a little above the ankle and this greenish shirt with short sleeves slightly puffy, it has a high neck and an open circle in the chest so you can get a peek at my boobies! I wore my pink 3 inch heels with black dots and little skulls on them.

I actually died my hair a darker brown the other day and just went with my dike look, which I do love to do. I did an exellent job on my make up and I must say I looked HOT last night. I even went out in public like that. I had to run back home and grab a few things so I drove home, walked a few blocks and all.

I did get 2 pictures, but they're not the best quality. I need a smaller camera and plan on getting one asap.

It was a fun party and there was a good turn out. Probably about 40 people in all. I also got to be the first to try out our newest piece of equipment, THE WHODINI BOX. (look it up aka bondage box) So I was put in there and used as a glass holder and table for about an hour. Completely restrained in only bra, panties, and heels. I was allowed to jerk myself off but I was blind folded and little did I know that I was coming into a wine glass with wine in it only to be fed my own cum mixed with wine a whole 5 seconds later. Which I had trouble swollowing but I didn't have much of a choice in the position I was in.

So it was a good party and I can't wait to dress up again. It just makes me want to go get breast implants and be a women everyday. Actually when we woke up in the mourning we had to run over to the dungeon - Miss and I to finish cleaning up cause one of the girls had a session. Well I just wore my make up when we walked to the dungeon with my regular guy clothes on. When I a great job on my make up I don't want to take it off. I got plenty of looks from strangers, but that's ok.

1 week until we move into our new apartment......CAN'T WAIT!!!

Messy Diaper

Today is my second diaper day of the contract. As soon as I woke up I hoped in the shower and when I got out Miss was waiting for me with a diaper in hand. On it went, all snug and tight. Then I was off to school.

I didn't wet until after class on my way home. It was so easy to wet this time. It just takes practice I guess. I wet at 3:20 and it's been a little over 2 hours that I've been in my piss filled diaper. MISS SAID I HAVE TO USE THE DIAPER EVEN FOR POOPING. I just finished eating Cambells chunky Beef soup and I knew I had to go poop. Miss is off at work so I stood up, nervously but I really had to go. I barely even squated and pushed a little bit and it felt like a smaller size fell into my diaper. Then it followed by a much larger one and a little bit more. ooooooooooo

My diaper started sagging off my waist so I had to tighten it which only brought the poop right up next to my butt and it smelled, oouuuoo weee! I sent Miss a text saying I pooped in my diaper and She called me a dirty little girl. Then said I have to stay in the diaper until She tells me I can take it off. I put on a 2nd diaper over the first so that my diaper stays on me more and nothing leaks. Now I'm sitting in two diaper with poop all smashed up in my diaper and my bottom. And I really have to wet again, I'm really am going to be a dirty mess.

This is the first time I have ever pooped (messed) in a diaper. I feel so dirty and childish.

DUNGEON FURNITURE

BONDAGE FURNITURE arrived yesterday. Not all of it but we will have a few more pieces in the next week or two. It's furniture that Miss designed and the line of furniture that were coming out with. Right now it's all metal dungeon furniture and it looks GREAT. -----Pics up soon----

We got the 8 foot standing cage with 3 doors in the front that open. It also has other features but it's easier to see in pictures. But it's 8 feet tall by 3 feet wide and ours is black. Then we got a whipping post with a pully system. It has a base and a tall pole, ours is a little over 9 feet tall.

Then we got the bondage chair. Which is great for Toilet play and rope bondage with many points to tie off to. Our suspension from will be arriving in the next few weeks as well as temporary branding poles! I'M EXCITED.

We managed to fit all that we received yesterday into our play room (dungeon) in our house which now looks even better.

FIRST 3 DAYS & a SURPRISE!

Day 1 - was Tuesday and I had class at 12:30 to 3:20 but I had woke up in the cage as that is my new bed. Which I am having a growing love for. I just love being confined in a little space and having the door locked on me. Not being able to get out until Miss decides to unlock it. I feel like a caged animal. I cleaned up around the house and took care of the dishes. Miss was gone most of the day and didn't get home until late. Although I did have a mess up, I was supposed to practice walking in heels and it really did slip my mind. Miss punished me by making me wear heels THE WHOLE DAY tomorrow.

Day 2 - Was my day off. So after I woke up and took a shower. I dressed in beige stockings and a garter belt. With of course a bra and I actually decided that I need to waist train more often. So Miss slapped the new 26inch black with white pin strip waist cincher on me and it was laced tight! I followed by applying my make-up and hair. Next my most favorite item my sissy maid dress followed by 5 inch platform white heels. (Which I wore ALL DAY LONG.) My feet really started to ache, but I know I won't forget next time. In fact I have to put on heels and walk around the house after this. I didn't make Miss a 3 course meal because She decided She would like to go out to eat but said I will make up for it next week.
I did just like Miss asked and cleaned both bathrooms, all surfaces, organized, straighted and cleaned the bedrooms and playroom. I also scrubbed the bathroom floors and kitchen on my hands and knees as there were spots that a broom and mop couldn't take care of. I cleaned for about 3 hours and then Miss let me relax a bit and watch TV because I have been feeling quite sick the past week. However, She didn't want to hear me talking so I was gag with a HUGE ball gag while Miss went to the office to work. I was still in my waist cincher sitting up straight like a lady and fully dressed as a maid.
An hour went by and my jaw was really hurting. I had never been gagged so long, luckily Miss finally let me remove the ball gag. Then I was put in the cage and locked for the night.

Day 3 - (today) Diaper day. I am a baby girl, not a baby boy. I woke up and maid Miss coffee then served in to Her on my knees with head bowed. I had some homework left over so went right to work before I had to run off to school. Miss came around the corner with the Depends diaper. Which isn't too bulky but is slightly noisy. However, you can't see it under clothes unless you wet it a whole lot or it shows above your pants. If you wear 2 or more you can tell a bit. After class got out which was at 3:20 I was walking down the stairs really having to pee. I made my way to fedex kinkos and I couldn't hold it any longer.
I wet my diaper. But I can't lie, I really enjoyed it. Knowing that I was in public around all these people just pissing in my diaper kind of hoping it would leak. Once I got home Miss wasn't home yet and I wet even more....HOORAY! Miss had laid out clothes for me to put on immediately and finish up the dishes before I did anything else. It was a semi lacy white top that comes just over my belly button with spaghetti strings and a mini cotton pink skirt. That you could just slightly see my diaper in. I was cold so I put on grey and black polka dots leggings over my diaper as well. So I could be the baby girl Miss wants when She gets home.
It's not now nearly 9pm and I have been in my wet diaper 3 hours now, so squishy....haha. Just as I was starting this blog Miss came by me and told me to stop, stand and pull my skirt and diaper down. Bend over the desk and I saw lube in front of me. She took our newest toy the Aneros prostate massager and inserted in my butt. It went in so smooth and quickly. Miss moved in a bit pulled up my diaper and told me to sit down and finish my blog. That was my surprise that put a big smile on my face.
It's actually the newest version of the Aneros and it's called the Nero. Mine is red and now they all come with a steel ball on one of the ends that goes under your balls and it helps for the Nero to move around on it's on when wearing it. I know this will be used for prostate milking and much more. I've never had my prostate milked but really want to do it. Although I may end up regreting that if I'm not allowed to cum for longer periods of time.
Day 4 is tomorrow. Saturday we are getting our dungeon furniture and will have guests in the house for the night. I will still be Miss's "slave" in front of them as well as next week when shibari rigger DOV from New York will be in town for a few days and staying with us.

Well I'm off to practice walking in heels. I'm going to wear my newest ones. Pink with black dots and black mini skulls from HOT TOPIC. It's only a 3 inch heel but they fit me the best.

SLAVE CONTRACT April 8th to May 7th

Miss has decided to do a month of STRICT PROTOCOL with me. As I am Her 24/7 slave there is ALWAYS things I can learn and improve upon. Many of these teachings in this month I know She would like implemented a lot more in the future. There are rules on this month contract that I do already follow regularly as well.

Which are: I must ask to use the bathroom, eat and drink at all times in any situation. I don't have to ask to drink water. When allowed to touch myself I must always ask if I am allowed to cum. I wear a my color at home, I'm Her sissy maid on certain days, wear panties everyday. As well as daily cleaning and other tasks She may wish for.

Here is the contract for April 8th to May 7th. (I may shorten some parts but the protocols are all the same.

1. slave agrees to the following contract.

2. slave must wear collar at all times when at home or in front of lifestyle people.

3. slave will address Miss Jaded as Miss, Mistress or Mama at all times. (When I am in diaper)

4. slave will wear clothes chosen by Miss when arriving home for the day.

5. slave will wear a diaper all day and can only use the diaper as a "bathroom" on the following days. April 10th Thursday, April 14th Monday April 22nd Tuesday and April 29th Tuesday. NO EXCEPTIONS

6. slave will be sissy maid aly every Wednesday (my day off from school) aly will straighten, dust ALL SURFACES, clean both bathrooms, clean bedrooms, office and play room, dishes and cook a three course meal for Miss.

7. slave will check in with Miss each day before arriving home to see if Miss needs anything picked up from the store.

8. slave will sleep in cage EVERY NIGHT unless places at bottom of Miss's bed in bondage.

9. slave will be kept in chastity ~ physical or mental for the duration determined by Miss. NO EXCEPTIONS.

10. slave will do dishes every night before bed.

11. slave will not touch Miss (at all) without Miss's permission.

12. slave will prepare coffee first thing every mourning if Miss wishes.

13. slave will ask permission to watch TV. Homework will be done as well as the days duties before permission is granted.

14. slave must ask for permission to sit in chair or couch.

15. slave will ask Miss frequently if Miss needs anything, anticipate needs.

16. slave will be sure to please Miss before thinking of slaves own needs or wants.

17. slave will ask permission to eat and use bathroom.

18. slave will follow any speech restriction Miss decides.

19. slave will walk in heels for at least 30 minutes every other day (every even number day) to practice. slave will be dressed as a girl if Miss desires.

20. slave will post at least twice a week in blog.

21. slave will be allowed up to 1 hour a day for computer recreation.

22. slave accepts all rules on contract for 30 days when signing contract.

----------Miss can also punish me for all rules broken even on little mess ups.-----------

Is cross-dressing enough? Or do I need to go further?

I love who I am. I am happy being a man and if I were to be a man for the rest of my life I would enjoy it to the fullest. Where I'm going with this is I have cross dressed since before I can recall. I don't remember the very first time because there have been so many times. I do recall preferring to want to wear my sister's clothes over my mother's clothes because it just felt "more natural", if that makes any sense. I know I started doing this many years before I were to turn 10 years old. As I had gotten a little bit older I started wearing friend's clothes that were girls. Of course they didn't know. I never wanted to sneak into a girls underwear drawer and smell their panties. I wanted to put on their panties, bra's, jeans, skirts, t-shirts, dresses, cheer leading outfit, swim suits, make up and more. So I did. I would be at a friends house who would have a sister. I would say I'm going to use the bathroom and I would sneak a skirt, bra, or something girlie. Sneak it into the bathroom with me, lock the door and be a girl. If I was lucky they would have clothes in the bathroom. One time I recall a younger girls 1 piece swimsuit in the bathroom and I struggled to get it on at first. But I got it on and LOVED IT! I've always been petite, tall but thin, shaped like a woman in my hips, butt and thighs. I have small feet for being 6'2 now, I grow little to no body hair and almost none on my face. I have never actually shaved to this day. Now I shave my legs regularly, my arm pits, my crotch area. Miss loves that I cross dress. She says part of the reason is She's attracted to me as a girl. She has encouraged it yet likes me as a boy as well. As do I, don't get me wrong. Like I said before I LOVE who I am and I can't say that I want to be a woman. But I do know that my "fantasies" have only grown stronger since I was a child, since I was a teenager and since I've been with Miss. At first the concept of getting breast implants was erotic. I never thought anything else of it because I'm happy being a man AND my family, my friends, my life. Would I be ready to take that big of a step to transition into a woman? I don't know. Mentally I believe I would be great. But having to explain it to my family and friends and not knowing how they would take it. I can imagine how my family would take it.....there not very liberal, I'm sure you get the point. Miss says She would love if I got implants. I say if I get implants I'm also going to get cheek implants, hair implants and do what would be necessary to be a good looking, passable TS woman. What I do know at this point is it's something that has been on my mind. I look at other women like most men do but I also look at the way they dress and coordinate themselves. I think about how I can look more and more like a woman when I cross dress. It's great to have the support of Miss and it's also very arousing to me if I became Her slave girl. To actually be a real sissy maid, to be a woman with her "useless" cock chastised, to be passable on the street and be fucked like a woman. I won't ever stop cross dressing, but is that enough. Right now it is, but my mind is thinking about doing more and more everyday. I'm not sure where this will take me and it's something I would only do if Miss wanted it done. (The picture is me cross-dressed in lingeria on March 22, 2008)

WISHLIST ON AMAZON.COM

I have made my official Amazon.com wishlist. The majority of it is for my "Girlie" self. For my transition into being the best girl I can be for myself and for you to enjoy. I also have some boy things in there, some natural pleasures for me to indulge in but mostly girlie things.


I have many shoes on there because you know a girl has to have shoes and what outfit is complete without shoes...? No outfit. Stiletto's, pumps, flats, pointed toe, peep toe, round toe, fetish, dresses, skirts (summer attire), wigs, breast enhancers, lingera, shirts, bondage and more.

As Miss wanted the thing between my legs pierced so that it could be kept locked up all the time and tucked properly between my legs we have also decided to get a few other things pierced. I will be getting both my ears pierced so I can wear earing's, girlie earing's. So earing's will also be on my wishlist. I am also going to get my belly button pierced rather soon. YAY!

So go ahead....Indulge a bit into my wishlist. If there is something not on my wishlist that you would like for me to wear for you please send me an email to autoeroticboy@yahoo.com showing me what it is you would like for me to wear. If it is on my wishlist or not and it is purchased I will of course model it for you LIVE on webcam and "surprise" you with a little bonus of fun. Or if you do not have a webcam I will be modeling them in pictures.
I'm girlie but dirty not only for Miss but YOU as well........
You can get to my wishlist my clicking on the following link.


Or you can find it on my myspace.com page www.myspace.com/autoeroticboy

Kisses


Masturbatation: Orders, Rules, and the Unknown

Basically from the start of Miss and I's relationship I have always enjoyed "release" in a different manner. I must of course please Miss and make sure that She is satisfied but when I am allowed to release it's always done in a humiliating, goofy manner. It's only going to continue as new ideas and rituals come to Miss's mind.

As I will be in full time chastity when my chastity piercings completely heal, in about another 3 months release will be more few and far between. I will most likely become more accustom to anal milking's every so often instead of a chance to touch my own cock.

Currently here is a list of what Miss enjoys having me do when I'm allowed to masturbate to Her amusement.
1. Cum directly into my mouth, lick my cock, suck on my own cock.
2. After cuming I am to lick up all of my cum and swallow it. (Which I find to be more difficult that cuming directly into my mouth.
3. There have been a few occasions where She has allowed me to freely cum and I ejaculate onto my stomach usually. However, then She smears the cum all over my body. Chest, stomach, face, hair and I must sleep with it like so. Not allowed to take a shower until the next day.
4. Miss has also collected cum and put it in the freezer so that it keeps. She says She's going to use it as Mayo, cream cheese, or an extra sauce on food I eat when where out at a public place.
5. Of course I am always verbally humiliated. Many times dressed as a girl which is normal when where at home. Or when I am Her sissy maid, I am degrated and kept as Her slave.
6. Masturbation while locked in the cage. I take off my chastity device, masturbate and I'm not allowed out until the chastity is locked back into place.
7. Masturbate over the phone while 3 guys and 2 girls where on the other side of the phone telling me what to while laughing at me.
8. Cuming directly onto my face and into my eyes and hair.

Now what Miss has hinted at......The plans I do know about as far as having me masturbate to Her pleasure.
1. A blow up doll. Preferably a transvestite blow up doll. That way I can use the dolls mouth as I give head to the doll.
2. Giving oral sex to a transvestite and if I'm lucky I will get a blow job or more from a transvestite.
3. Milking procedures. Mostly anal when kept in chastity.
4. Fucking blow up animals like a sheep.
5. Only being able to cum from anal penetration without touching myself.
6. Masturbate and use my cum as lube to fuck me in my ass.
7. Cock pumps in Miss's control, not mine.

Those are the ones I know of. I know She always has new, creative ideas. I am nervous yet I look at it as exiting as well. To really be a slave for Her is all that I could ask for. At times it's challenging and that I love. Because I am always doing new and different things. I must adapt and learn. It keeps me on my toes and on my best behavior. Then Her control of my sexual release just tops the list. She owns the cock and balls and has the keys to my orgasms.

HOOOORAY!!! A REAL SISSY MAID

Today I was expecting a few packages to arrive and they did to my delight. My sissy maid outfit arrived! Of course the petticoat with it. It's white since I have white lacing on the dress. I also got black locking high heels and white heels. The dress is a beautiful purple satin. I actually decided to order from fashions4fetish.com instead of superdresses.com. After talking with Sissy Maid Kelly I decided to go there. Superdresses do have many many wonderful dresses to choose from although they are over the top expensive. YIKES! I'm so pleased with the dress I have gotten. Heres the dress I bought but in purple.
http://www.fashions4fetish.com/shop/index.php?main_page=product_info&cPath=19&products_id=93

So Immediately I opened the boxes and Miss wasted no time and told me to try it on. Not that She had to force me to put it on. I was so anxious for it just to arrive. So, on it went and it fit perfectly. This was around 3:30 our time and it's 10:30 right now. I haven't taken it off once and it's locked at the back of the neck. I feel like a gitty child, well more like a gitty sissy girl.

Now we just have to go pick out a few wigs from a local shop and I can really become a sissy maid. I thought of Pinochio and how he was shocked how great it felt to be a real boy. I was actually amazed when I put on the dress and how I felt. I couldn't help but think that this is really me. I've wanted to be a sissy/sissy maid for so long and now I've found a Mistress who loves for me to be Her sissy. I know it has only begun and is only going to get better and BETTER.

I do have to wait until May - June until my cock Prince Albert piercing can be attached and lock to my Guishe piercing behind my balls though. Both piercings have been feeling better but a little Motrin does help me throughout the day. My cock would burn every so often when pissing, sometimes worse than others. The Guishe is just acquired. Especially when walking but it's all worth it.

I got the chastity piercings

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ROPE n SATIN PANTIES

Tuesday night Miss and I went browsing through a couple local stores and then we stopped to get a few new panties for me. We were looking for something different, something cute. I ended up getting two pairs. One was a boy short, it was a bright light blue with small white dots. But the cute pair were light - off pink satin with a ruffle style on the trim. More wavy than a ruffle with black trimming. There bikini style and the butt buttons up with black buttons. I just love satin in general. The way it feels on the body especially when you touch it. When Miss would glide her nails over my butt or cock and balls in them I could just die! Of course I put them on as soon as we got home that night. But I wore them to the Nawa Shibari Meeting that She runs on Wednesda evening.

It was a great turn out for the second straight month. GreyDancer from Madison Wisconsin came in and taught the larger class and Leon did the beginners class. Rainbow rope also sponsored us this month and we gave away two 25$ gift certificates to their site.

Later in the night Miss had me strip down to just my panties and you know She had to show them off Her friends. Everyone loved them! Then She did a rope suspension on me, it was the first time in quite awhile since we've been lacking a suspension unit. Although, we will have one soon. YAY! I was a bit inverted in hogtie type position. I have lovely rope marks on my right shoulder, arms and hips. The photographer was unable to come but someone else got some pictures so hopefully we will have those soon and I can show you all some.

I found this image ---- It's amazing

I found this image online and I thought it was beautiful and wanted to share it. I read that this person is a crossdresser regularly and I can see that through the picture. It's just wonderfully shot, the lighting, angle and placing of everything in the room. I think shots like these have been attempted by many but this one is the only one that does it justice. Check it out.

first sissy maid outfit

The Holidays are officially over and the cold weather is truly upon us here in Chicago, brrrrr.

But one thing that was keep Miss and myself happy indoors is a new sissy outfit for me to serve Her in. Well, I should say my first sissy maid outfit. I have been longing for one for a very long time and I'm a have to wait another 10 days or so to order it but I will have one very soon. Of course I need the perfect heels to go along with it and for me those are the locking heels. YAY! I'll also be getting my petticoat and I'll go somewhere locally to try on some wigs. Miss also wants me to get some frilly sissy undergarments which I'm excited about.

Miss has given me the options to pick 4 color combos for my first sissy maid outfit. I say first because we both want me to own many in the future. I also must toss in i can't wait to get the rubber mask to make me look even more like a women, but it's humiliating and yet exciting. Back to the colors. The picture online shows the black with purple lace. I do enjoy that one. We both decided to get a more girlie color first. I love the dark red with black lace but maybe that will be my second one. Then there is white with pink lace and a medium/darker pink with white lace for my first options. Although I'm leaning towards the purple with black lace.

I do know that it will be long sleeved and be locking at the back of the neck. I think this place is great. superdresses.com it's on ebay as well but she has a large site for straight fetish only, sissy maid, abdl, real women, bondage everything. It's simply amazing. Here is the style of dress I'm going to get, I can't wait. http://www.superdresses.com/catalog/product_info.php?products_id=3686

There are so many wonderful choices and different combination possibilities and it's really like a dream come true. It can only get better from here.