I love who I am. I am happy being a man and if I were to be a man for the rest of my life I would enjoy it to the fullest. Where I'm going with this is I have cross dressed since before I can recall. I don't remember the very first time because there have been so many times. I do recall preferring to want to wear my sister's clothes over my mother's clothes because it just felt "more natural", if that makes any sense. I know I started doing this many years before I were to turn 10 years old. As I had gotten a little bit older I started wearing friend's clothes that were girls. Of course they didn't know. I never wanted to sneak into a girls underwear drawer and smell their panties. I wanted to put on their panties, bra's, jeans, skirts, t-shirts, dresses, cheer leading outfit, swim suits, make up and more. So I did. I would be at a friends house who would have a sister. I would say I'm going to use the bathroom and I would sneak a skirt, bra, or something girlie. Sneak it into the bathroom with me, lock the door and be a girl. If I was lucky they would have clothes in the bathroom. One time I recall a younger girls 1 piece swimsuit in the bathroom and I struggled to get it on at first. But I got it on and LOVED IT! I've always been petite, tall but thin, shaped like a woman in my hips, butt and thighs. I have small feet for being 6'2 now, I grow little to no body hair and almost none on my face. I have never actually shaved to this day. Now I shave my legs regularly, my arm pits, my crotch area. Miss loves that I cross dress. She says part of the reason is She's attracted to me as a girl. She has encouraged it yet likes me as a boy as well. As do I, don't get me wrong. Like I said before I LOVE who I am and I can't say that I want to be a woman. But I do know that my "fantasies" have only grown stronger since I was a child, since I was a teenager and since I've been with Miss. At first the concept of getting breast implants was erotic. I never thought anything else of it because I'm happy being a man AND my family, my friends, my life. Would I be ready to take that big of a step to transition into a woman? I don't know. Mentally I believe I would be great. But having to explain it to my family and friends and not knowing how they would take it. I can imagine how my family would take it.....there not very liberal, I'm sure you get the point. Miss says She would love if I got implants. I say if I get implants I'm also going to get cheek implants, hair implants and do what would be necessary to be a good looking, passable TS woman. What I do know at this point is it's something that has been on my mind. I look at other women like most men do but I also look at the way they dress and coordinate themselves. I think about how I can look more and more like a woman when I cross dress. It's great to have the support of Miss and it's also very arousing to me if I became Her slave girl. To actually be a real sissy maid, to be a woman with her "useless" cock chastised, to be passable on the street and be fucked like a woman. I won't ever stop cross dressing, but is that enough. Right now it is, but my mind is thinking about doing more and more everyday. I'm not sure where this will take me and it's something I would only do if Miss wanted it done. (The picture is me cross-dressed in lingeria on March 22, 2008)
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